Dealing with ME

Well, since all this quarantine stuff has started.. here's my 2 cents worth,  again, my opinion & I am entitled to it.  The Covid-19 is a virus,  our bodies react to it, as if it was the flu, but roll pneumonia in with it. Cause as some know & some of us have heard, because we've never had either 1. You can't breathe all that well when you have pneumonia, so with all that being said, that is a good way to describe this virus. And, 10,000 plus people die every year, from either the flu or pneumonia & sometimes both. Yet, we don't scream quarantine, now mind you, these is an idea of just here in the United States. I'm thinking if we tracked these same 2 diseases worldwide,  we would be in quarantine every cold & flu season. Again, this is my opinion on this whole thing, yes, I am aware of what Dr Fauci has been saying. I do not need any peanut gallery comments. So, all I'm saying, is thinking on that for a minute, don't be such a germaphobe, be...

Friendship is important.. even though I am a very absent friend.. I'm not good at keeping in touch with others., not even my own family.. I have a small group of friends,  all kinds of associates .. and I'm bad about not keeping in touch.. I reached out to an old friend recently,  and it was like we never stopped talking at all.. though I have so much to say & I missed them dearly.  My cup runneth over, as we sometimes say.. it's been a good few days .. 

I will eventually have some advertising on my site .. I will post my website for Origami Owl,. I am an independent Designer and I'm going to share something my fellow direct sales person wrote about our industry. 'Let's get something straight. A pyramid scheme is illegal. STOP saying that hard working people in direct sales and multi-level marketing are in a pyramid scheme. KNOW THE FACTS. You are talking about people that work hard to support their families, provide for themselves and offer wonderful products and services. We don't get paid from the funds of our team members, THAT is illegal. Our corporate office pays our bonuses, overrides, incentives and we personally make money from our own sales. Stop shaming people that are making an honest living and doing life different from what YOU deem appropriate. Open up that tiny mind just a bit. I don't rant ever ... but THIS will always get me.' - Carrie Burgett (Pure Romance is her job)

If I share something,  I can assure you,  it has the credited site I got the picture,  meme, or whatever it may be on it. If it does not, I will mention that the item is not my design or creation.  As I mention often, I am never sure what to discuss or write about. I spend a lot of energy keeping myself in a calm state of mind.. and as some of my imported posts mention,  music is my therapy.. and like I've said before,  do not just stop any treatment you are doing to help you, to do what I do. I listen to music constantly at work, and at home, I do play it, if it's not my babe playing her favorite songs on our home mini we have. Cause,  then it's jam time, dancing, singing & shaking our ponytails 🙂 that's how we roll .. Again, please, be kind, we do not know the struggles of others .. I struggle to be kind on a daily basis,  but I do my best .. 

Telling my stepmom about more of my life before joining our family in 1985, helped her better understand me .. and why I am the way I am .. don't be quick to judge others 

This is about how I feel for this year 

Still here .. I am a firm believer in a higher power, along with mother nature.. you have to find your own balance of the 2. I have found what works for me.. do not judge others, because their "normal" clashes with yours. It is not our place to judge one another, because we were all raised differently.. more love, less hate .. 

Starting porting over a few more posts from my other site,  I realized,  I can't do it .. there is almost another 6 months worth of posts to move .. I have the file downloaded.. I'm good .. and it's not worth my sanity & anxiety to do it ... 

Some of the previous posts may be a bit out of order .. and that's okay ... again, I copied/ pasted from my other hosting site .. went back & added some dates..but the majority of my posts are not current, they are from 2019 ... 

Anxiety sucks, as does dealing with the smallest things frustrating you.. for the most part I'm okay when I'm working, it's when I get home, that I tend to get grouchy. Grouchy, that's a good way to put it, goes beyond that. But, when you get ignored about something you have talked about on more than 1 occasion.. 🤷‍♀️ .. I am perfectly imperfect.. I still struggle with posting everyday 😔. I'm 6 days between this time .. smh .. I guess I need to set a reminder .. Our Saturday trip to the Newport Aquarium, in Kentucky.. we had so much fun .. remember, teach love & tolerance, don't let your kids be mean to others for no reason 💜💚  (7.9.2019)

The overthinking isn't as bad as the overwhelmed part. Again, another evening of feeling rushed, even though, bless my husband for dinner out with the kids. I just get overwhelmed by trying to a working female with a family. I work about 45 hours a week, plus come home & do most of the domestic duties of the house. My husband has the hardest part of entertaining our youngest so I can get things done. I get very manic at times, because I have to come home & start doing things around the house, which is when I turn on my pandora & listen to music. Keeping calm as best I can. Then I rush around & I'm wore out, I don't sleep well, which makes things worse.. I'm babbling, I know.. I'm going to rest now .. another time I will return..

At posting enough .. I tell myself to post & I end up forgetting or realize it's super late and I am too tired to sit & type.🤦‍♀️ Coupled with the fact I get distracted and discouraged about a lot of things. When really I probably shouldn't,,but it is what it is.. please drop a line or two to say hi on the contact page.. I do look to see if I have any.. if you're advertising something, not right ..

I was fake, because I have an open view on religious beliefs, as well as having a wide variety of tastes in music. Hence why I waited a few days to post again. To gather my thoughts on such a wonderful enlightenment on myself. We all have our opinions of others, and that's okay. I do try not to be judgmental about others, I don't always succeed, but I do my best. As I said previously, I'm an eclectic when it comes to music, but my preferred genre of music is country. But, I'm not mad at anyone for their opinions, we all have them. I'm not changing because someone doesn't agree with me or understand me as much as they thought. Though I will say this, I thought there was an understanding of agree to disagree, but I guess I was wrong, 🤷‍♀️.. I will keep being me, spread love not hate, try to understand someone else's methods to their madness.. "Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and give it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, fl...

Having a headache, too much stuff on the ole cranium and working in the accounting department at your job, not a good mix. That's how my day started out. It continued on throughout the day. And that happens, luckily I have some awesome coworkers who understand when things like this happen. I am able to listen to my music during my work day. It was a good day, the worst part of my day, is not getting things done I want to get done after work. I have constant battles with feeling anxious about small things, and then I get a overwhelming feeling of frustration and that's where I end up getting mean with those around me. And then I find myself trying to calm myself, even if I just get a hug from my man, that can help, along with a hug from my mini me. Please listen to David Driaman's message, we all struggle, I am one of those, I love this song.. You are not alone. I am only sharing something that is from YouTube https://youtu.be/gRGRduyCy_M Don't give up 💚💜 talk about ho...

Music, as therapy, imagine that.. I use it on a daily basis, to keep me grounded.. I would explode on people if I wasn't able to listen to music. I am thankful for my love of music, it really does keep me sane, as we like to say at times. I am, at times a walking jukebox, especially if I'm out & I hear just a snippet of a song. I would be in a walking fog had I not realized, for me, music is my antidepressant. And again, this works for me, it is not an option for everyone. Do not quit taking any medication you are currently on, without discussing it with your doctor. If you have an innate love of music, and you want to try 'my therapy', please fully discuss it with your doctor or licensed therapist that you see. Do not do it on your own. I'm sorry, I've not posted daily, I'm trying to get better, it's not easy for me to get it done, sometimes I get discouraged & distracted by things. But I assure you, I'm working on it. Much peace, love &...

Am I the only one who struggles more than someone you care about is struggling? That's how I feel today, don't continue to carry on for someone who decides not to be part of a project they started. Or half asses their participation when they decide to be involved. Anyway, you will notice some ads on my site, I need the help to keep my site going. I want to keep this going, and allowing some advertisers to place ads, will help with the cost & maybe even some expansion. Thank you for swinging through.. 💚💜 spread love, not hate..

Okay, so, 1 of my biggest frustrations is those who do not clean up after themselves. Yes, my mother cleans my house, not that my house is dirty, she is just a bit more old fashioned. My house is lived in, with having a whirlwind toddler, I get overwhelmed easily, yes I work a full time job. Then you add in an adult child, who doesn't clean up after themselves, that makes it worse, my husband is allowed to leave a mess, he pays the bills. I wish folks could truly understand what goes on when you have someone in the house that's acts as though they are beyond some things, even when their parent asked them to do something. And being a child of a Marine, who didn't disregard what their parents asked them to do. Yeah, takes everything I have not to snatch someone up. Not going to miss anything when gone off to college in the middle of August.  My anxiety & frustration then turns into taking it out on everyone else.. so it's been an interesting evening for me already... ...

This was written on 6/8/19, but again site issues, I'm working on it... I have determined that I can not take black cohosh, it's an herbal supplement that is supposed to help with premenopausal issues. But for me, it helps with that, but also makes me more aggravated when I take it. I only discovered this, I've not taken it for well over a week now. I feel a lot more calm. I didn't have this issue when I was taking soy isoflavones for the hot flashes. I guess I'll be dealing with hot flashes more, until I'm able to buy some soy isoflavones again. The wonderful life of pay check to pay check.

It's nice to not have my work aggravate me as much as it once did. 24 years in food service, the last 18, in & out of a management roll of some kind. My aggravation is more things I deal with at home, now that doesn't mean anything is wrong with my relationship. It's just simple things that can set me off, just trying to open something up, trying to clean something up & someone walks around where in cleaning. That's just a few examples of what can cause me aggravation & prompt an episode of anger, over thinking about things usually sets off more of a manic episode. Again, I do not take medication for my bipolar disorder. I deal with it on my own, music is calming for me, and just getting a few minutes to myself also can help as well. Learn to be more open minded about the world, we are made to think for ourselves. My beliefs & opinions are going to be different than yours..

I get irritated rather easily, just about anything can trigger it. I don't shy away from the fact I never really wanted the responsibility of having children. But, as I often say, things happen for a reason, my children are 17 years apart. I started completely over at the age of 40.5, but I have the 2nd for a reason, unbeknownst to me.  With that being said, we all know children test us greatly as parents, relatives, etc. That is a huge trigger for me, I have to constantly remind myself that this little person is learning all the things I know, not to do or do in everyday situations. Side note, do not ever tell your children, something is not possible, something is not real, because that causes them to loose that wonder for life. If they choose not to believe something, that is entirely their decision, not yours to make for them, same as for foods, let them try everything, don't hamper their taste buds. Anyway, folks who don't want to take initiative around their workplace ...